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Today I had my appointment with the Lactation Consultant. It went pretty well, she gave me some very good pointers. I also got a bunch of stuff to help me with breasteeding, nipple sheilds, pump stuff, and some suringe things. All the free things that she gave me added up to good $80.00, and I didn’t have to spend a cent. I really appreacited all the help that provided.

The LC checked sophie out, she weighs 13lbs 12oz, still little but doing well. She also got me to try to breastfeed her, and of course Sophie threw a fit. Basically what I have to do from now on is refuse to give Sophie any bottles and make her breastfeed. The LC told me that it might take a day or two of alot of protest crying, but a hungry baby won’t starve herself and will eventually eat from the breast. I have to wait until I have full supply, otherwise it will all be pointless. She upped me from 10mg of Domperidone to 20mg, and said that withing a month or so I can stop taking it and should be able to nurse without supplementing. I’m really hoping that this will all work out, but if she ABSOLUTLEY refuses to take the breast I can alays continue pumping. I’d rather do that then give her formula.

So, I’m the boss and I have to make my baby listen to me. If only it were as easy as it sounds. I’ll let you know how it all worked out. Bye Bye….

Here’s my little fatty

News update on the breastfeeding mom II:

I went to see my doctor yesterday and she prescribed me Domperidone, which is technically for stomach issues but works really well for people with low milk supply. I’ve been taking it for only one day and can already see a huge difference. Yay to the tiny white pills!!!

Yesterday Brad was playing with Sophie, tossing her in the air, doing airplane, and then all of a sudden a HUGE white Spit-up drool toppled right on top of him. I was watching it happen in slow motion, and luckily Brad’s reflexes were fast enough to move her away from his mouth, that would’ve been hilarious!!!!

I only laugh because it had happened to me before. Sophie doesn’t spit much, in fact I can count on my fingers how many times she’s spit up, but when she does it big. It was all over his shirt, pants, and even got some on the couch. Hahaha, I’m still laughing.

Oh, Brad is finding out soon if he will be graduating this semester, I’m really looking forward to coming home. I just want to go to the movies really bad, and we have no family to babysit here….

Stinker is up from her oh so long nap…jk..bye

She is 13 1/2 pounds now… My baby is growing up

P.S. Here are my weird search engine terms for today (the internet is full of very odd people):

• old lady sex
• watching mom pees
• swaddler made to look like moms hand

A couple of posts ago I had written how sad I was about Sophie refusing to breastfeed. After a couple of days of moping around and feeling sorry for myself, I decided to take things into my own hands. I had done some research and realized that it was quite normal for babies to go on nursing strikes around 4 months, I am not alone. The only problem that I had though is insufficient milk supply. Seeing as how I’ve never done this before, I have no idea how to get it back and start nursing again. So, I did some more research and found myself a breastfeeding clinic. I have an appointment on Monday with a lactation consultant, meanwhile I pump every 3 hours. It had been working, I’m slowly seeing an increase in m supply, now I just have to figure out how to get the little kid to latch and not freak out. I guess that’s where the LC comes in. I’m really hoping that this is going to work, I just CANNOT give it up. Babies are meant to be breastfed!!!! (I’m not chastising mothers whom don’t, because I KNOW hard it is).

On another note, Sophie is sleping a bit better. I think the soother had something to do with it, once I took it away she learned to sleep without a sleeping aid. Still working on it, but atleast I found the problem. But, I always think I’ve found the proble, only to figure out that it was not it. Babies and their daily changes…..

Daddy and Sophia doing “SOPHWEEEEE”

Those of you who have been pregnant may remember the feeling that the rest of the world was pregnant as well. I know I saw pregnant women everywhere, and just before my due date I saw babies everywhere. It’s not that there were more pregnant women/babies out there, I think we just tend to notice people to whom we can relate. The point to that little intro was to express my very sad day today.

It seems as though everywhere I turn there’s a mommy breastfeeding her baby. I think that is the most wonderful thing that a mother can do for her baby, and it is very sad for me because I can no longer do that for my child. We had a very wonderful start to our nursing relationship - she had a great latch and I had great milk supply. But somewhere around 3.5 months she decided that she no longer wanted to nurse. I don’t really know what brought that on, all I know is that it was a very difficult time for me. Breastfeeding was something that only I could do for my child, no one else had that comforting skill, it was something that separated me from everybody else. And now I can no longer do that. Every time that I walk by a mom nursing her baby I just want to cry. I had hoped to breastfeed for much longer then I did. I guess I never expect to feel the way that I did when she breastfed, and I never knew how sad I would be once it was over. Maybe it wouldn’t have been so hard if it had lasted longer, I guess I’ll never know.

Today I took Sophie for a walk to Safeway. I thought that while we’re there I might as well pick up some formula for her so that I won’t have to go to the store again. While I was standing in line to pay, a mother with a baby about the same age as Sophie came up behind me. Mom’s tend to strike conversations with one another when babies are around. We chatted a bit about our kids, and then she noticed that I was holding formula in my hands. She then proceeded to tell me about all the benefits of breastfeeding. She said “Don’t you know that breast milk the the best source of nutrition for your baby? Why give her formula when you can give her breast milk?” I don’t think she meant to make me feel bad, but I also don’t think that she realized what she was saying. I explained to her why I couldn’t breastfeed, and she apologized because she saw that it made me upset. All was ok, but it made all those sad feeling to come right back.

I think I will feel sad about this for a while, I just wish I didn’t have the reminders everywhere. Just thought that I would share my sadness. Sorry for the pity party, but I think some of you may be able to understand.

This is the picture of our last nursing session, taken 2 sec before she freaked out. Sorry if some of you might find it offensive, but nothing inappropriate is showing so I thought it was ok…

My little weirdo has decided that she will only give up the suzi for bed time, nap time is a no go. Oh well, I guess we can both compromise for now.

News for the week:

Sophie has now officially started solids. I was going to wait a little closer to 6 months, but she seemed quite interested in food. I bought an avocado and a banana, and thought I’d give it a try and if she doesn’t like it then back off. Well, the first day she ate 2 tbsp of banana and then got mad because I wouldn’t give her anymore. I try to limit how much solids she gets a day, usually it’s only once a day. Watching her open her mouth and eat is very cute, but her poops are SOOOO stinky now. Ahhh the old days of breast milk poops. Sorry, I guess you don’t want to be reading about my daughters poops. Anyway, I have decided that I am going to make homemade baby food. I don’t really like the idea of buying canned baby food, and this way I can make it very healthy and nutritious. I’m not a huge health freak, but I try to be as healthy as I can be and eat well. When I was pregnant with her I mostly ate fruit and veggies, it was just what I craved, until my 3rd trimester where the donut craving hit hard, but we won’t talk about that.

Back to talking about homemade baby food, I have frozen avocado, apple sauce, and bananna for later. This is so exciting, I don’t really know why. I guess because my parents told me that I was such a horrible eater as child that I thought Sophie might be like that too. I know it’s way too early to tell, but I figured that if I introduce solids and have a happy and healthy start, then she will do better then I did. I hope so atleast.

That’s it for today, have a good day everyone!!!

Today I am going to write about all the things that make me happy. Well maybe not ALL the things, but my current joys. #1My thoughtful little angel decided to give mom a break and slept in all the way until 11:45AM!!! I can’t believe that a 4 month old can do that. Yes, that is my current joy, as I have not been able to sleep in like that in 4 months.

#2 For some odd reason, when Sophie turned 3 months, she refused to nurse. It wasn’t just a little nursing strike, it was one of those “I’m not eating from your boobie and will scream bloody murder until you give me a bottle.” I know it wasn’t nipple confusion because she rarely got a bottle, she just wanted to go on a strike. Anyway, my #2 joy is that she has been nursing like a champ in the last couple of days. This makes me SOOO happy, since I was not ready to give up on breastfeeding yet.

#3 She is finally becoming interested in toys. At first when I would try to play with her she wouldn’t even give them a second look, but now she has found herself a stuffy best friend. I call it “baba”, this way she will be able to say it. Oh i can’t wait til she can talk. And when I give it to her she gets all excited and starts talking to it. Currently she is sucking on baba’s tail.(well more like slobbering). Here’s Sophie and her baba bear.

#4 I think I’m going to be all done with all the things that make me happy, not because that is all that I have to say, but because I need to save some stuff for later.

until tomorrow then..